Monday, April 16, 2012


Doesn't Charlie look perfectly terrified to be on the back of this four-wheeler with me at the controls?  LOL. 

One of the other Easter weekend activities was four-wheeling.  My brother-in-law Chad brought his four-wheeler to our family celebration and although I knew my in-laws had at least 10 acres, I had never ventured out on them.  At first, when Chad took it down off the truck, I was pretty sure I wasn't going to get on it because I wasn't really dressed for it.  But then I remembered that my dad and I used to go three wheeling and ride on his motorcycle and I really liked it, so I climbed on.  At first I rode behind my sister-in-law Jessica, but then I took the handlebars and rode with Charlie.  It was really fun, albeit a little muddy. 

How often, in my strive to be proper and graceful, do I forget to have fun? 

It was a good lesson for the day!

Monday, April 9, 2012

buck-teeth and bunnies

The big hit at the annual egg hunt was these bunny teeth themed pacifier lollipops that Charlie found at the dollar store.  After a big afternoon, the kids were suddenly quiet with these in their mouths. 

Hope you all had a Happy Easter.  We had a great afternoon with lovely weather and four wheeler rides, which I was pretty sure I wasn't going to do, then I actually hopped on and four wheeled myself through some lovely mud puddles.  Unexpected fun!

This week I'm back at work and tired already this evening, so I'm off to bed.  I know this is short, but I thought you'd enjoy seeing the nephews and niece. 

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

erasing the doubts

Our case worker Debra and the new agency director Patience are coming for a visit tomorrow to update our home study.  This is the second time we've updated our home study and I'm anxious about it, although I don't really think anything is going to go wrong.  It is merely just paperwork and a visit, but since our old case worker, Josi, left to go back to school, we have a new one and since Josi was also the agency director, we haven't met Patience yet. We really like our agency and have always loved the people they choose, so I'm sure Patience will be warm and wonderful.  I like her name though...Patience certainly fits in the adoption world.  LOL. 

I discovered something on Sunday when our pastor was preaching.  He was talking about doubt and how when we ask for something big, we need to believe that God will provide.  Lately, I've been feeling like I should just give up hope on getting a baby and to just let God surprise me with good news, but that isn't really the correct mindset or belief.  I need to trust that God will bring us a baby, and trust that his time is the right time.  I can't doubt his plans when he has lead us this far.  Yes, it is easier to put myself in a protective bubble and prepare myself for the bad news than to constantly live on the edge of hope.  I had a breakdown during worship, just crying and calling out to God that he move in our lives and situation and bring us a child to love and raise.  There was even the sweetest baby dedication on Sunday and I can't wait until Charlie and I can dedicate our own child.  It will be such a happy day, someday. 

The photo above is of baby bedding we got years ago.  It was our "boy" bedding and we used the turquoise color as a jumping off point for the paint color.  Of course, now we've rearranged our house after we thought we were getting the twins and the paint color is more coffee brown.  If we get a girl, then we are using pink and turquoise, and if we get a boy, lime green and orange with the brown.  That's the plan, anyway.  The bedding has never been opened, so if you are interested in something like that, let me know.  I'll give you a great deal (we have the bumpers, quilt, skirt and rug).

I spent today cleaning the house, which wasn't that dirty, but I vacuumed and dusted in our bedroom, which normally doesn't get that much attention when we clean.  I also vacuumed the nursery which wasn't dirty at all, but Phoebe rolled around on the rug and there was husky fur all over.  I put out a spring arrangement in the entryway and just straightened up.  I walked on the treadmill and had lunch with my friend Mandy.  It's been a good day. 

So, prayers that all will go well tomorrow and that our agency might have any bit of good news to share with us.  I like to hear that our book is being shown, which always makes me feel good.  While I do want to get chosen, just being shown is really important.  There is no telling what might make a birth mother choose us and I don't fault anyone for choosing someone else.  The birth mothers should choose the couple that speaks to them and it is important decision.  I just like to know we're in the mix. 

Well, it is starting to thunder here and so that means my doggies are going to want their momma.  They don't like thunder and lightning, which means I'll get lots of cuddles.