Today I felt like a mom. An honest-to-goodness mom. It's not that I haven't felt that way before, I have, in small moments. Like when Jackson would fall asleep on my chest when he was little. Or when I fed him with a spoon for the first time, or when I make decisions about what is best for him. But today, I felt like a real mom. I was driving in my mini-van, Jackson strapped in the carseat, looking for consignment sales.
I love consignment sales, and I hate them at the same time. We have some really great churches around here that have consignment sales every spring and fall. I've been to a couple of them before, and there is one close by that we really like. It is in the church's gym and they are super organized. It is coming up in a couple weeks and we've been planning and making lists about what we need. Jackson needs new pajamas and 9 month clothes and I think we need an umbrella stroller. Now that we have a little boy who can sit up in a cart and ride in a big boy carseat, the umbrella stroller will be easier to get in and out of the van. Right now we have a jogging stroller that Charlie uses on jogs and walks, and one of the carseat frame strollers that we can sit the infant seat in and is easy to use when we are running around town doing errands. But, we are transitioning to the bigger carseat, we won't have the infant seat and I don't want to mess with the jogging stroller if I don't have to.
Today I went to one church where we thought there was a sale and the parking lot was completely empty. I texted a friend to see whether I was at the wrong place and I was, and then went to the correct church. I was disappointed. First of all, when the building you are having the sale in has three huge steps and a curb, how do you expect moms with strollers to navigate this? A curb is one thing, stairs is another. I got up the steps carrying the stroller, but I would not have been able to do that if Jackson were heavier or I had a larger stroller. Inside there was not a big selection of clothes, which was what I was looking for, and the aisles were very narrow.
I left quickly.
I ended up at Target, where I promptly thought I misplaced my cellphone and so I searched the store all over for it before finding it in my back pocket. My back pocket. I never put it in my back pocket but I did today because I didn't have the hook to hang my purse off the handle of the cart so I put it in the big section of the cart. My phone kept beeping and getting it out of the cart was a hassle so I slipped it in my back pocket and forgot it was there.
It was my first cast of mommy brain.
On another note, thanks for the information about your finalizations. I do know it takes a long time for many adoptions to go through, but I think I am mostly just frustrated with our lawyer and how they don't contact us---they just BILL us. I don't like that. Not at all.
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