Thursday, August 27, 2009

get me through it

There really isn't any news to report, but I did talk to our adoption agency today. I like to call and check in every once in awhile, just to let them know how we are. Kelly, our agency rep, is totally wonderful and awesome. She has a gift for talking me through my little emotional times, when I miss the baby so badly. This summer has been a healing time, but going back to school has resurrected some of my emotions. People have been asking if there is news, and one mom asked me how the baby was doing. Bless her, she didn't know, and she felt HORRIBLE, but it was just another reminder that everything fell apart.

Kelly talked me through what I was feeling, letting me know that others are waiting, too. And when our day comes, it will be wonderful and worth waiting for. Right now all I can see is the season I'm sitting in, not what will come later.

It's hard to be patient. When we had all the paperwork to do, I felt like things were moving forward, step by step, but now there isn't anything to do but wait. I have nothing to accomplish, nothing to check off my list, nothing to do but wait.

SO many people are praying for us and I am so grateful. I need it. I want to be able to handle the waiting gracefully, and treasure the time that Charlie and I have together. Keep us in your prayers, please.


♥~♥ Nine Acres ♥~♥ said...

I just came across your blog and am glad I did. Your story touched me and I will be thinking of you and praying for patience and grace while you wait. Know it WILL happen.


Maria in Lewisland said...

I also stumbled across your blog tonight. My heart recognizes some of what you've experienced. The anticipation, the grief and the subsequent waiting are no strangers to us. All I can say is that the timing, waiting, pain etc. doensn't make much sense unitl you're on the other side of it. (And even then - there are questions.) Peace and blessings to you waiting family.